My beloved cat of 9 years passed away last night, it was very hard for my family as he was such a large part of it and all of our childhoods. I'm thankful to have had him in my life despite the sadness of his passing but it made me really reflect on the meaning of advent and what we're supposed to be preparing for: our death and the second coming of Christ. Is our hearts properly prepared to receive our King? Is our "house" in order that if He may arrive suddenly, we can show Him in and not feel that it is lacking or wanting? Start today and prepare for Christ's coming. Fast, pray, make frequent sacraments and good works. Christmas is almost upon us and as this season ends and a new one begins, please keep me and my family in your prayers as I keep you and yours in mine 🙏🏼 #sadness#pray for the #brokenhearted#tears#sorrow#gonnamissthecrankyoldman#thecouchseemsemptynow#faith#hope#love#bible#bibleverse#catholic#catholicchurch#catholicism#christian#christianity
LONG CAPTION DIDNT REALISE❄️It's unbelievable how physically exhausting it is trying to stop yourself from relapsing and then trying to stop yourself from reaching a new form of low. I sleep so so much when I fall back down which leaves no time for me to do school work because I'm always so drained from the literal bare minimum, I could sleep all the time and I'd still be tired. Its mentally exhausting also trying to keep a smile on, not just for other people but for yourself to believe that you're somewhat happy, it's so hard trying to hold back the cracks in your voice when speaking to someone or even attempting to speak about these types of subjects, when I seeked help yesterday I cracked the moment I told the lady that "I'm finding things difficult again" but I'm so lucky I have certain areas in my life that bring me joy that I can grasp on to. I really hope I don't wreck them if I spiral downwards. Trying to act like I have everything all in tact is so hard because I have no clue what I'm doing because I've never planned this far into my life. I've got the school involved in stuff again because I can't deal with it on my own anymore or I'm just going to snap, it only took about 5 months for me to get to breaking point compared to over s year beforehand so that's either a good or a very bad thing. I HATE this but I'm trying to get through it, even though that's hard when your minds telling you there's no point and you can't be bothered to try.